A Letter For A Lover

Dear Lover,

We fell in love blind to each other, we couldn't see each other or ourselves. We brung out parts of ourselves with each other that no-one else ever saw. You took away my anger and taught me patience. I wanted to tell you sometimes about your mistakes, how they pricked at my skin, planted themselves carefully in places that hurt, how this irritation grew but I couldn't. Your voice washed it all away, water will always over power anger and you will over power me. Rule my heart.

Little things add up to something big but everything thing that can be counted should not always be counted because that petty. So, the countless mistakes you made, I ignored them, because I do not want our love to be petty. I want it to be strong, true, pure. You say i'm weak and a pushover because I let you get away with things?? I don't let you get away with them, I forgive you immediately because I love you. I could be brutal, harsh but it would hurt me to know I hurt you, wasted time being horrible to you when I could've spent that time loving you.

You love is my weakness. It silence's me, when I should shout. It paints over sadness with a smile. But its my biggest strength, Why? Because its something closest to me, my greatest alibi in life, making life worth living, something so wrong but so right, something that puts this barren world in to technicolor, devours evil and anger and replaces it with happiness.

But, you are arrogant, stuck-up, mad and a disgustingly beautiful person. You make me sick. You drive me insane, everything that should make you revolting but only makes me love you more. Any person with two brain cells, would tell you to stick it where the sun don't shine but I can't. Neither can I leave you because i see it as abandoning you and there is some pull, I don't know what like a magnetic field that draws me back too you and only you. Its beyond my understanding to be honest.

Maybe, its all just destined. Me and you. Maybe, this is a test? Or the end?

You broke my promises, and I couldn't take it any more, everything got so much so, I turned away. Just for a second. I didn't leave you as you say, you broke me. Yeah, your promise was just words, words that can be used over and over again, in so many ways, but they meant alot to me. Trust takes years to build but a second to break if you can break one promise what means you cant break another?

In my eyes, we are still together, hanging, but still intact, to you, we are two pieces of thread. but does a seconds mistake break everything we have? What about all them mistakes you made? What if I punished you for them? What if they had the same consequences?

You want time to decide, decide then, but You don't have forever, I'll learn to live without you even if it hurts everyday for the rest of my life.

Have it your way.

Love from

Your Whatever.