Today, i feel really lonely, i went college today and i have new friends here but I just feel lonely. I miss my friends, it takes time to become close with someone, when someone fully understands you or you can tell them anything and they will understand. When a nod of the head means exactly what you want it to mean or a waggle of the fingers has you set of laughing. Laughing till your stomach throbs and your cheeks ache because you've gone to the extreme. Rolling eyes and your friend knowing exactly what you mean. Wacking them round the head with your water bottle and taking the piss out of them and them acting helpless. Getting a hug when you need it. Everything, to be honest life with your bestest, closest friends 400miles away is hard living.
We talk on the phone, on msn, on facebook, text, but its never enough. It doesn't satisfy the face to face conversations. Walking home, getting the bus together, then going up to your house and saying "See you tommorow" and smiling to them and yourself that you've got the greatest friends in the world.
I miss where I use to live, it was so much more diverse then here, more cultures, shops, more everything. I hate the fact that town is so far compared to where i use to live basically on the same road. You could see the shops from my window. Here, people assume your foreign because you got a hijab on and the lack of coulored people. They think you'll have an accent and wasn't born in the same country as then. They think you hold extremist views until you tell them exactly what its like to be a muslim.
The experience of being "new" is not a nice one. Everyone says eventually, it will feel normal but how long is eventually?
(Have A Listen)
Labels: Freinds, home, life, loneliness, love, new places