Birthday Meal

Some of these pictures are bad quality because they are taken on mobile phones and the fact of uneffecient lighting, but i have tried to make them better on photoshop. ;)

Ugh

Another coursework filled weekend. :(

Holocaust Survivor

I was really priviliged today to have a talk from a holocaust survivor. Walter Karmilini (sp?) came to England on KinderTransport during the WW2 at the time of the holocaust.

HEs 86 now, and his story was extremely moving. The freakiest thing was when he showed his parents passports and the day they had the "J" stamped in it for the sign of a jew was 27/02/39 exactly 70 years ago from today. He talked about the joining of Germany and Hitler and how some austrians feared it while others welcomed it.

Walter talked about how Jews were humilating by being made to scrub pavements ect, and how Jews would get beaten up by Nazi thugs for no reason while others watched and laughed. He said one time his father nearly got taken away by the Nazi's but was allowed to stay because he was ill and had a doctor note.

He told us that his parents died in Auschwitz and so did one of his sisters however, one of his sisters got out of Austria and came to this country on a domestic visa. It was really moving when he talked about his parents because he never saw them again after they sent him to England. He told us that he visited Auschwitz to see where his folks last moments were and saw rooms full of shoes and suitcases untouched for over 70 years of all these victims.

He was lucky though because he met his wife on the Kindertransport and they've been togther for 65 years and he said it definitely made life worth living and he's eternally greatful for letting in those 10.000 jewish children during the holocaust otherwise, they would have been dead either. Also, when he went back t re-trace his history he found his parents and sister with her husband listed in the book of dead holocaust victims and thier passports ect.

Its just really sad that the holocaust happen and most of the people in the class were on the verge of tears hearing his story and its scary that people with authority or just normal people just stepped back to save themselves. AND its scarier that sometimes in looks likely that it will happen again just maybe to another large group people.

"Under Achieving?"

Yesterday, my mother recieved a call from my science teacher saying that im "under-achieving"? when i got an A* in my science exam, I dont understand.

Memory Stick Mayhem!

I bought this new memory stick on saturday because my MP3 player didnt have anymore room on it and i wanted to delete all the work on my MP3 player so, there would be room for music and my MP3 player was being funny because it wouldn't allow words docs or powerpoints on there - i dunno why but it worked later on.

So, for my coursework i bought a 2GB memory stick for £7 and today was the second day i've taken it to school to give in my coursework, i gave it in and the teacher said i should do one more little piece just to get them extra marks. Now, i put my memory stick in the USB, the computer tells me its Malfunctioned - its 5 days old! 5 days! i am in an outrage. I'm going to try find the reciept to this memory stick and return it for a new one because i know it has a 30 day exchange or refund policy! i am not happy with this.

Results for Science!!!

Im really happy for my results for Science CORE because I got an A*. I've actually been dreading to get the result for this exam because the exam was like the worst exam i've ever done in my life. Most of the answers were educated guess' and its not because of the exam i was woried about failing its my science teacher because she can't teach well not big classes like our one because teenagers just over rule her.

Neways, I also got an A in Science ADDITIONAL which im happy with but i don't really remember that paper i think it was alright and my teacher in that lesson is a legend and we have a small class of 13 so, we all get full attention.

So, now im just waiting for the result of my maths re-sit, which i hope a got a B or more in because i want to hit my target. Not that im doing any maths at college Hooray!

But i best be off, and finish this coursework I've got left otherwise I won't be hitting my target in this subject.

The Dress

Okay, I've actually finsihed my dress that i was making for textiles, well its close enough now all i've got to do is put the sequiins on the sleeves but thats a 2minutes job so, i am finished. Even if i didnt put them on my dress wouldnt look un-finsihed.

After spending a drooling, 3 hours 47 minutes on my dress today it all came together. Sewing and un-doing where i went wrong posiibly brought me incredibly close to insanity. Especially when i didn't understand the way the pattern piece instruction told me to put my dress together, i had to think of another way.

Neways, this has definitely taught me - "dont bite off what you can't chew" because 1) it was a complicated dress and 2) the geogrette fabric is to hard to control.

If i ever make any type of dress again i will make a simple cotton dress, that i can wear all the time. NEways i will post a picture of it after i have had my wife model it for me. (No I'm not a man just shes one of my best friends and I've known her for 12 years and we are like soul friends) I'll give you a blog on her sometime ;)

Non-Uniform

From Left : SC, JA (me), TG, HB, FB (lower row of 3 from left) AR, BW, SM

Us on probably our last ever non-uniform day at school, something to look forward to, now its gone, a bright memory captured in a moment.

Anger Quote

“Anger is only a natural reaction; one of the mind's ways of reacting to things that it percieves to be wrong. While anger can sometimes lead people to do shocking things,it can also be an instinct to show people that something isn't right.”

Jog On

Yesterday, i had an argument with the unreliable girl who i have mentioned before in my blog, as you can see i call her a girl because shes not my friend anymore and i'm not hers.

What happened was...FB (my friend im not going to use thier names) and that girl had an argument over the weekend and that girl instead of fighting her own battles got her cousin who's 14 to swear, argue and piss off FB. Then that girl on Tuesday (because we didnt have school on Monday) told another friend- (BW) that FB deserved to be sworn at.

That girl when confronted by FB at our bench where we sit during break and lunch said her reason for blaming it on FB on msn ect was because she was the only one online and she only told FB to "Fuck Off" because of the same reason - yes i know pathetic excuse. This is when I butted in and asked her "so why did you put "Janny and Amy stop talking about me" as your msn name." and her reason was because we talk about her. Fair enough, we do talk about her but i told her "Lots of other people talk about you too, no-one likes you everyones just putting on a face for you" by this time i was shouting but thats because she shouted at me first and lying to my face. I also told her i wouldn't care if she talked about me or anyone talked about me because it really dosn't bother me. Then, she got up and left realising she really wasn't wanted because i called her an antention seeker and sympathy hunter (which also other members of the bench agree with) and because i was at the tether of my temper I shouted at her while walking off "yeah you walk on, jog on *sticking my fingers up* you fucking bitch, fucking sket"

When she glanced over while weeping shouted across the playground "Don't fucking cry you sket" and she stuck her fingers up at me and i shouted across "fuck off".

Eventhough, my friends agree with me that she is a attention seeker, sympathy hunter and liar they dont agree that i said "Lots of other people talk about you too, no-one likes you everyones just putting on a face for you" because aparently that was "too harsh" personally, i don't think it is "harsh" because the only reason of being nice to her was so that she didnt cry because she always wants sympathy and attention ect. Also, truth hurts you gotta deal with it, I mean she isn't a child she hasn't gotta be spoon fed and constantly checked that she's not hurt - she's 16.

Im a very opinionated person and i say what i think. I don't think what i did was wrong because maybe from this she will learn not to do that to her other friends. If she has a problem with me she has to deal with it not get other people to sort it out for her or expect me to change myself because darling, i won't. Furthermore, I'm actually a very nice person i like to have a laugh and giggle, i love making friends, be honest and i hardly ever loose my temper. I think thats the first time i've lost my temper at school.

Neways, eventhough some of my friends who didn't do anything and just watched felt guilty i dont feel guilty, i don't care if she dosn't like me and i wouldn't be affected if my friends did that to me because i would never lie or be like like her because if your like that you are expected to get a slap of reality sometime soon - she bought it on herself! It might seem really cold hearted but last time i had a fall out with her and made peace was because i beleive people deserve second chances but she had her second chance and messed it up. I'm not going to apologise for anything, she refuses to talk to me and aperently "never wants to see my face" - which is going to be hard round school lol!

So, now she can jog on.

Different Hijab = Different Outfit

Today i wore the same thing i wore about 3 weeks ago to a revision session out to town because i had a day of school and it looked totally different because of a different hijab, some different jewelery (as you can see i have the same necklace on but it has more charms on it because i added them on because one of my other necklaces broke) and a different pair of shoes. Magic, how a different piece of fabric can transform something in to something else.

Its not that im lacking in clothes but i do like the fact the hijab makes same clothes look different and a girl can never have to much of anything.

Neways today, i went shopping and bought 3 new pairs of shoes, a necklace and some under clothes. My mum only paid for a pair of shoes because i paid for the rest. Normally, im really bad at saveing money but i saved a little bit of my bus fare for a while, coppers and silvers but when i counted it it was alot of money so, it came in to use when i planned myself a small shopping spree.

However, i really best be off now because i really need to do some school work!

My sewing machine

It might not be as fancy as the one below i got off the internet, but it does the job and i love it, eventhough i sometimes i hit it, swear at it and neglect it, i do love it. This is also an awful picture because of the sun coming thorugh the window.

True Quote

Falsehood is easy, truth so difficult - George Elliot

Always tell the truth. That way, you don't have to remember what you said. - Mark Twain

He who permits himself to tell a lie once, finds it much easier to do it a second and third time, till at length it becomes habitual.- Tomas Jefferson

Dress-Making

Today, i spent 6 hours on making my dress for my textiles, the exam board say that the practical piece should be finished in 20 school hours, so really i wasn't suppose to bring it home. but an unfinished product means i would fail so i did.

Im making a dress, an anarkhali dress actually its sort of like this -
http://salwarkameezonline.com/blackanarkalioutfit-pi-1804.html
but I intend on my dress having sleeves and my dress has red and green working on it.

neways this is a picture of a sewing machine, its, just a picture of a sewing machine off the internet but tomorrow when i finish off my dress i will take a picture of my sewing machine for you. ;)

Oh yeah, and my dress.

Liar Liar

Ugh, i hate it when people lie, its probably the worst thing ever, especially when they dont' justify the reason why they lied, not that, that makes up for!

Especially, when they drop someone in it who hasn't even spoken a word or even ever spoken to the liar.

Eugh, im not going to right a blog on a liar and get angry about it. Basically, i hate liars!

Late Reciever

Well, you know my friend (the unreliable one) we kinda bought up the subject of her actually turning up to a party and what she said was...
"I am coming....if you dont beleive me you can talk to my dad"
It's not the fact we don't belive her, its just the fact she's so unreliable and will back out last minute AND there is no point of buying vegetable curry if none else is going to eat it AND she dosn't even like asian food and shes pakistani - I don't really understand that but yes! So, if she dosn't like asian food, and she's vegetarian - which is a bit of a problem because asian food is actually horrible tasting and i don't think she will turn up then is theres really any point of her being there?

Trip Day

Today i went on a trip as a trip for excelling in my Textiles/product design work. Eventhough it was a trip To IBM thiny thing who are like a company who specialise in electronics and the future of electronics it was really fun.

We did, 8 activities and there was other schools there. So it was abit of a competition but we came 15th out of 16th but its the taking part that counts AND a day out of school lessons and assembly was definitly worth it.

The activities were to do thing computers, communication, logic, global warming and stuff like that. The Assistants there were really nerdy well i suppose they would be - not thats theres anything wrong with that! This place was really in the middle of nowhere so there was no like mobile reception. Our group felt slightly out of place because the other schools were country schools and we were the only city school.

This post is probably really jumpy, but thats because im in a really hyper mood. haha.

Party Poopers

Don't you just hate it when you invite someone to your party or some kind of gathering and they back out last minute. Well I've got an unreliable friend like that and she's in my group of Friends at school so, it hard to invite other people while she's there.

I've decided i'm not going to invite her to my early 16th birthday party because
1) She won't turn up
2) She's going to give me a silly excuse like "...i had to be at the mosque for 8 hours.." ( I got really annoyed about this because I'm muslim and I've never stayed at the mosque for 8 hours and she never mentioned the mosque ever before!)
3) After being invited to other gathering Friends have held she now has a record of a No-shower.
4) It will just be a waste of food.
5) I could invite someone who will actually turn up instead of relying on her.

If she gets upset about why i didn't invite her, I'll just explain nicely my reasons and if she said she would have come if i invited her then I will say i have no guarantee of that. I think thats fair.

Coursework Crunch!

Ugh, coursework, it just seems to be dragging now, i have no longer the will to complete these pieces of work that count towards the grades im gonna get in the summer. I really have no effort in what im doing.

I still have R.e long course to do, all three pieces of Islam soursework, and one piece of Christianity thats if my unorganized teacher hasn't lost the other two pieces. He's always loosing stuff. I still have prodcut design coursework to do, which is extremely time consuming and i have to finish my dress which is my practical piece. I need to finish my I.T coursework before the end of March and on top of that start to think about preparing for the final exams.

Sigh.

On top of that I've got to try and stay on this diet and try and loose some wieght or lots of weight. Bearing in mind will power is not my strongest point.

My goals seem unreachable, i just really can't be asked anymore.

Help?

First Blog!

Well, i have actually wanted these for ages probably because i have a lot to say all of the time and its on my list of things to do before I die. But right now i don't know what to write, ironic isn't it?